July 29, 2009

I was on track for a 3rd day yesterday and did real well. I stayed within my calorie range and walked for 20 min's with my co-worker in the morning.

Yesterday was just one of those days that doesn't start well and doesn't end well. I over slept by 30 min's, had to rush to get ready and to eat breakfast. Traffic was backed up for miles due to an accident and I literally walked up to my desk at 7am. I'm usually in the office 30 to 45 min's early each day and like to use that quiet time to prepare for my day and knit. Of course I'm the first one in my office in the morning so if I was late no one would know but me but that's not the point. I'm always on time. Once I settled in for the day everything was fine but my day never went back to normal. I felt rushed all day.

Walking with my coworker really has been helpful to me. I start at 7am and we walk at 10:30, back by 10:50 or 11. It's helped me break up my day and made it not feel quite so long. I'm hoping that she'll want to continue for a long time but she's going on vacation next month and will be gone for most of the month as she's going to be gone to china. I'm going to have to keep walking even if I have to do it on my own. I always have my iPod with me and I can use it to keep me entertained. I can always listen to a couple of podcasts while I walk.

The leaving my desk is going to be the hard part. Right now I'd rather read a book that my co-worker has lent me or work on my knitting. I'm on my 12th pair of socks for the year. I had made a goal for myself to make 12 pairs by the end of the year and I'm going to do it. I still need to start on the shawl that I want to make my Grandmother for her birthday but that is not "due" until December so I have some time to get it done. And let's not mention that I need to get started on Christmas gifts now. Can some one please do all this stuff for me?! If that's not a cry for help I don't know what is! lol

While I still need to get all this stuff done, I'm trying to make my health/weight a priority. Since I started this job a year ago I've gained 15 pounds. It's no wonder that I haven't been feeling good and that the chronic fatigue has come back...not to mention the nightmares that leave me feeling like I haven't slept at all the next day. If I don't start back with my "diet" plan and get myself in order and don't start walking regularly, I won't be ready in the fall when the weather changes to start running again. Right now (excuses, excuses) it's too hot for me to run in the evening, and I already get up at 5 am so getting up earlier isn't an option, to run.

I know that some of my coworkers, friends and family might look at me and think I'm just whining about my weight to get attention but honestly I'm not. My BMI is still in the normal range and I don't look like I've put on any weight to others but when I look at me naked I see the fat stomach and the new cellulite on my butt and thighs and even when I'm dressed I see how tight my shirts are around my middle and that my pants are cutting into my stomach and how the material is stretching to try to accommodate my thighs now. I hate it.

1 comment:

Evil Twin's Wife said...

I know how you feel...If I'm above the weight I'm most comfortable, I get aggravated!